I’ve decided to follow up on my previously protected post (which can be found by clicking HERE) in which I wondered if any of us really know what we want.
In short, no.
Author: maryhelenc
My name is MHC. I am a single mom of three, a freelance writer, a blogger and awesome.
Turning Tables
I love the holidays and the pointless ridiculousness that stems from a sentiment.
My good friend posted this link on his Facebook page about a young lady who was suspended from school for posting a racist tirade on her Facebook page regarding the concept of celebrating Christmas and how anyone who doesn’t want to say “Merry Christmas” can “Go back to their own F***ing country” and that we should dress as Santa and scream it at minorities.
Will The Future Blame Us?
I love my mother, but sometimes she drives me bonkers.
The year is almost over & she feels I need to “reflect” on the past. I’m not a reflecting person. I don’t dwell on anger or missteps or things like that. I prefer to go forward & keep living. My mom dwells & wants me to do the same.
Fallout
I did a very bad thing.
I let Drew smash my ex husband’s wedding ring with a hammer & tweeted the video.
Desperate Measures
Sometimes things don’t always go according to the master plan.
I’m having trouble with this as I like everything to follow my master plans. When they don’t, I have trouble regrouping.
However, minor setbacks can be a GOOD thing. They remind us that we can’t always depend on the things we feel we should. The law won’t protect me from a madman, so I’ll have to protect myself.
Minor setbacks also remind me not to be so damned nice (somewhere Drew is reading this & CHEERING). I’ve always tried to maintain a cordial relationship with my ex for the sake of my daughters & gotten hurt every time. Maybe it’s time for no more Miss Nice MH…@ least where the divorce is concerned.
That’s my fatal flaw; the refusal to believe anyone, even the man who physically & emotionally abused & tortured me for months could be completely evil. My naive search for the good in everyone keeps costing me, now my personal safety. Sometimes, you’ve gotta accept that some people are just cruel, horrible monsters & the good died long ago when they spit in their pregnant wife’s face & called her a whore.
I’m not saying its wrong to believe that almost everyone is essentially good. I still believe that most people are good, kind people. I just need to open my eyes and see that some people are capable of being very bad & stop searching for good that isn’t there. Otherwise the girls & I are going to keep ending up in harm’s way.
Forgiveness & Love
Today is the day.
Reverend Run proclaimed today “Forgiveness Day.”
Not a bad idea. Why not take a minute & forgive your grudges? Forgive your pain & let go & go forward without any more regrets.
Grudges hurt the one holding them, not the ones being grudged against. Why let them continue to hurt you?
So, forgive & let go. Move on from the hurt & go forward.
Blogging vs Privacy…
To my fellow bloggers: have you ever written an entire blog post, thought it was awesome and then not published it?
That’s me right now. I just typed up an entire piece about my current relationship which I am pretty proud of, but I feel a bit hesitant to post it. While it’s not terribly personal persay, I feel like because it involves another person, I shouldn’t make it public.
Remember
Those who served, those who died, and the innocents who lost their lives along the way. On 11/11/11 let’s wish for an end to war.
Shed My Skin
Sometimes even I get vengeful.
There comes a point in everyone’s life where you think you’ve just had enough & in the words of my two year old daughter, “You done, son.”
…& Justice for All
Much like everyone else in the world, I was intrigued about the verdict in the Conrad Murray trial.
