I did a very bad thing.
I let Drew smash my ex husband’s wedding ring with a hammer & tweeted the video.
Author: maryhelenc
My name is MHC. I am a single mom of three, a freelance writer, a blogger and awesome.
Desperate Measures
Sometimes things don’t always go according to the master plan.
I’m having trouble with this as I like everything to follow my master plans. When they don’t, I have trouble regrouping.
However, minor setbacks can be a GOOD thing. They remind us that we can’t always depend on the things we feel we should. The law won’t protect me from a madman, so I’ll have to protect myself.
Minor setbacks also remind me not to be so damned nice (somewhere Drew is reading this & CHEERING). I’ve always tried to maintain a cordial relationship with my ex for the sake of my daughters & gotten hurt every time. Maybe it’s time for no more Miss Nice MH…@ least where the divorce is concerned.
That’s my fatal flaw; the refusal to believe anyone, even the man who physically & emotionally abused & tortured me for months could be completely evil. My naive search for the good in everyone keeps costing me, now my personal safety. Sometimes, you’ve gotta accept that some people are just cruel, horrible monsters & the good died long ago when they spit in their pregnant wife’s face & called her a whore.
I’m not saying its wrong to believe that almost everyone is essentially good. I still believe that most people are good, kind people. I just need to open my eyes and see that some people are capable of being very bad & stop searching for good that isn’t there. Otherwise the girls & I are going to keep ending up in harm’s way.
Forgiveness & Love
Today is the day.
Reverend Run proclaimed today “Forgiveness Day.”
Not a bad idea. Why not take a minute & forgive your grudges? Forgive your pain & let go & go forward without any more regrets.
Grudges hurt the one holding them, not the ones being grudged against. Why let them continue to hurt you?
So, forgive & let go. Move on from the hurt & go forward.
Blogging vs Privacy…
To my fellow bloggers: have you ever written an entire blog post, thought it was awesome and then not published it?
That’s me right now. I just typed up an entire piece about my current relationship which I am pretty proud of, but I feel a bit hesitant to post it. While it’s not terribly personal persay, I feel like because it involves another person, I shouldn’t make it public.
Remember
Those who served, those who died, and the innocents who lost their lives along the way. On 11/11/11 let’s wish for an end to war.
Shed My Skin
Sometimes even I get vengeful.
There comes a point in everyone’s life where you think you’ve just had enough & in the words of my two year old daughter, “You done, son.”
…& Justice for All
Much like everyone else in the world, I was intrigued about the verdict in the Conrad Murray trial.
Some Blogs To Check Out
During my travels on the internet to research articles, assignments or generally surf, I’ve come across some interesting blogs and I wanted to share those links with you.
So, I definitely recommend you check out these links, you may enjoy these blogs as much as I do!
If there are any blogs that you wanted to recommend, feel free to let me know in the comments!
New Look!
I’ve been playing with the layout/design of the blog.
I’m looking for feedback. Let me know what you think of the new layout or what you would like to see on the blog. If there’s anything you want to see/read about on here, let me know in the comments or on Facebook!
Enough For Now
I try not to complain.
I really do. My good friend Nancy at Whispered Inspirations has a saying “too blessed to be stressed” which I’ve tried to adopt into my daily life.
I’m not stressed, I’m tired.
I think back to when I had two jobs, two kids & I made this look easy. Now sometimes it seems so hard. Then I remember why it was so easy back then; I had help.
I had an amazing assistant editor who went above & beyond the call of duty. I still feel he needs a shout out because I’m remembering now that I’m back into the fray that he was invaluable to my career. My homelife has always been me vs the world but his partnership on the professional side of things made life so much easier. I could likely get a new assistant but honestly they would suck in comparison. Part of being invaluable is being irreplaceable.
Now it’s just me. Me balancing schoolwork, homework, kids, a job, & a life. Apparently there’s a learning curve & part of the learning is remembering that I am human. I need days off. I need sleep.
I try not to complain because this is the life that I chose. It’s the life that will bring me security & success. I have all of the tools to make my happy ending, I just need to make them all fit. I often wonder how other people make it look so damned easy & why can’t I be that awesome too? Then I remember the number one rule of life; never compare yourself to anyone else.
So, while there are days (like today) that I would rip off my own arm for one hour off, I remember when I was unemployed & felt useless & that I wouldn’t want my life any other way, if for no other reason than because I can look back & know there were no wasted opportunities. I just need to remember that I’m not the same woman I was before. There is no assistant. There is no partner. There is more expected of me & finding the balance is a little trickier. That’s not to say it can’t be done, it’s just harder. I need to remind myself to take a day off because I have no one to remind me that I’m working too hard. I need to learn my own limitations.
Until then, I’m going to take a nap.
The Misadventures of MHC 