30 Days of Truth Day 13 & 14

***Because my Windsor Social deadline is coming up, I’m going to be combining posts where there are only a handful of sentences***

Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.

Songs get me through, not artists

When I was in high school, Imaginary Friend (Chantal Kreviazuk) was my go to song when the teen angst got to be too much. It’s probably my all time favourite song to this day.

When I was ending my first engagement, I listened to Be Like That (3 Doors Down) & You Wanted More (Tonic). Stan was another song I listened to a lot.

When my marriage fell apart, I listened to the Katy Perry B-Side Part of Me & Back to Me (3 Doors Down). There were a few other songs, but those were the favourites.

Now it’s Come on Get Higher (Matt Nathanson). It reminds me of a specific memory of my boyfriend (more on that on day 24) & it makes me smile no matter how crappy the day gets & the girls aren’t around to brighten my day.

When my daughters were small, I sang to them. Each of them had a song I would sing to them each night, for Sydney it was Drops of Jupiter (Train), Addison it was When She Loved Me (Sarah McLachlan) & Hadley The Gift of a Friend (Demi Lovato) & The Messenger (Linkin Park).

Music is life. It gets me through everything, whether it’s something good, bad or just meh. Songs remind me of people, moments of time & it gets me through.

Day 14 : A hero that has let you down.

I’ve never really had a “hero”. I’ve admired people & they’ve disappointed me, but there’s never been someone I’ve idolized. I always wanted to be the person people looked up to, not another follower.

30 Days of Truth Day 12

Day 12 : Something you never get compliments on.

At the risk of sounding egocentric, I can’t think of much I don’t get complimented for. I’m a pretty good cook, my friends & boyfriend say I’m gorgeous & I get decent grades.

I guess the only thing I can think of is that I care too much about people. When someone I love is in a negative place, I worry to the point of distraction. It doesn’t matter who it is, I just want to fix it for them until they’re happy again.

30 Days of Truth: Day Seven

Day Seven: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

That’s easy; my daughters.

They are my purpose, my strength. They’re the reason I’m in college for a second time. They’re the reason I’ll work jobs that I hate. They’re everything.

I couldn’t imagine my life without them. When I was away last month, I called constantly, because I needed to know how they were doing & I missed them so much. Some days, they’re the only reason I pull myself out of bed.

On particularly trying days, when I want to flip out on humanity, I think about whether or not they would be proud of me if I _____. It guides me to do the right thing.

30 Days of Truth: Day Six

Day Six: Something you hope you never have to do.

I’ve already done it; said goodbye to someone I shouldn’t have had to lose.

Whether it was a friend, family member, or the two little ones who left before they arrived, I’ve said goodbye to a lot of people I wasn’t ready to lose.

I’m sure I’ll do it again but it never gets easier. It tears through your soul & no amount of “everything happens for a reason” makes it right.

30 Days of Truth: Day Five

Day Five: Something you hope to do in your life.

I’ve actually blogged about this before, so I’ll link up that post Here.

I figure I’ll revisit that list & see if I’ve crossed anything off it yet.

There’s always things I want to do professionally. There’s always someone I want to interview, something fascinating I want to write about. It’s why I love my job so much; it’s ever changing.

Personally, it’s just that list & maybe graduate for a second time & actually become a law clerk & travel to two places: New Orleans & Ireland. But otherwise, it’s those six things & I fully intend to accomplish them all.