30 Days of Truth Day 29

Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I wish I was more secure.

I can never just relax & accept that something is good, I always worry that the other shoe will drop & I’ll be left heartbroken.

There is no permanence in life; that always scares me. It’s hard to enjoy something that may not be here tomorrow, whether it be my job, my education, my friends, etc.

I am in therapy to work on it. I could blame the fact that I’ve been conditioned to think I don’t deserve to be happy, or it’s childhood trauma or the like. Truth is, that this is my problem & something I need to work on & something I have to improve. I hate when people blame everyone but themselves for their issues. It’s such a cop out.

I’m hoping as the days go by, I’ll learn it’s okay to relax & just have faith that everything is going to be okay.